About 2 and a half years ago I said that I wanted to write a book. I did not do it because I thought things like “who would buy my book?” “Do I have time to write a book?” and “What the heck would I write about?” I watched others in my circle work on their books and experience success as authors. In 2014 I sat down to start the task once again. Many people suggested that I announce the project and sell presell copies. Selling copies would hold me accountable…I would HAVE to produce the product! I sold quite a few presale copies, but guess what? I did not finish it. I refunded the orders and swept the project under the rug once again. At that point I told myself that I was many things, but author was not one of them.
As you know, I sell products online. I sell live and recorded webinars, my Business in a Binder (3 parts) and other programs. I have been pretty successful in selling those products and programs. Earlier this year it hit me: creating these programs and products is not much different than writing a book. Considering all the things I have sat up late at night typing I probably could have written 15 books! Once I realized that I got to work.
I am proud to say that in less than two months my book was complete. Here is where the self-realization started. After I finished the book it took me a long time to finally submit for printing. I had it edited, I read it and reread it and reread to again and again. Moving sentences, changing the order of the chapters….it wouldn’t stop. I had others read it and offer feedback. They all gave me excellent feedback and minimal suggestions. “It’s done, Lenise”, they all said. But I kept tweaking it. I missed deadlines and kept holding the document on my flash drive. Finally I realized that I was the problem. I came to the conclusion that I was scared. But what was I scared of?
I wanted the book to be perfect. I did not want a comma out of place, I sentence fragment. I did not want others to have negative things to say. It had to be perfect. I had paralysis…perfection paralysis. Have you ever had this? I “preach” to others all the time, “JUST DO IT, It will NEVER be perfect! blah, blah, blah…” I laughed at myself and realized I was officially a hypocrite. SMH. At that point I took control of the situation and pressed submit…well after I read it one- more-gen.. LOL.
The lesson I learned was that I must not just talk the talk, I must also walk the walk. Who knows, the book may be a best seller or it may be a total bust. (You can be the judge; order it here!) Either way I would never know unless I actually do it. I think about the words I uttered to a client this morning. I told her, “It is just like a car. If you do not press the gas it will never move. Just press the gas already!” If you are reading this (you know who you are! I won’t call you out…lol) just know that I too have to give myself a pep talk and a slap in the face 🙂